how sad is it that when i really need someone to talk to, the only person (or thing) that struck me as the best listener is my long forgotten blog? I'm terribly sorry for the hiatus and the lack of update because well, life after spm wasn't such a coaster ride like what i predicted or hoped it would be.
Truth is, after last year things have been spiraling downwards for me. Never in a million years have i thought that that incident would bring in a chain of events triggered by former events leading to where i am now. For your information, right now i feel like i might as well live under a rock. At least there the temp's not so high.
I'm not blaming others for what i'm going through now because i know i brought this on myself. It's all my fault. Truthfully i have so many reasons why other people should be blamed but from the way i see it, i was the one who started it and i am slowly paying for it. They are all drifting away and i guess it is for the best. I was never a good influence anyway.
sometimes, you don't need to blame yourself about everything. See the brighter side. :)
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